Where has the time gone???

I'm sitting here, realising that April is almost over, and I'm wondering where it went? I guess as you get older, time goes by much faster. The good thing is that summer will be here in no time!

Okay, I STS this week and I'm a little pissed. Not because I worked really hard at drinking my water, exercising or portion control because I DIDN'T. No, I'm pissed because I'm freakin lazy and feel 0 motivation at this point. I'm sick of being over-weight plain and simple.........but............there's a part of me that frankly doesn't give a shit! To top it all off, I'm off today, the kids have a PD Day and here I am at 5:30 am writing my blog! UGH!! I sooooooo needed/wanted to sleep in today.......

On a positive note, I tried the new coffee bar just outside of town and it was really good. I might just head up there this morning for another Cafe Mocha. Tomorrow, I've got family coming for a BBQ/ birthday celebration and I have a few things I want to prepare so I'll be busy grocery shopping today.

On a not so positive note--I'm a little sad this morning because I read a fellow bloggers blog in which they talk about something very personal and something they've struggled with for many years. This person is my sister so I actually have seen the turmoil this has brought to her. I've been quick to give her advice in the past about this but I'm not going to this time because she knows deep down, how I feel. She doesn't need to be jugded, she doesn't need to be told what to do. I think she knows and it's scaring the crap out of her. However, she's done it before and it only made her stronger--it's not fair--but it's better than the alternative.

It just makes me sad.

Another weekend over : (

Well first off, i lost the pound I'd gained last week so now I'm even!!!

Friday, my daughter Shannon had a friend over for a sleepover--they finally went to sleep around 10:30.

Saturday was her 8th birthday as well as her party. We had the best weather and the kids had a blast. I hired this face painter and she did a remarkable job, it was great.

Sunday my son woke up with a fever but " managed" to go outside to play, I figured some fresh air would do him good. It was such a nice day, even the dog didn't want to come in.

Today is a day to get caught up with the crappy stuff that nobody likes to do--laundry, straightening up, dishes....ugh! Nate is home from school, still with a fever that comes and goes. He's watching George Shrinks right now.

I did it!

I danced my first performance last night at the open house for our studio!! It was a group of 7--hahaha, a little canadian art humour--and we rocked it! I didn't think we were going to do it because we only practised twice but surprise, surprise there I was front and centre!! I was nervous at first but as soon as the music started, I totally forgot about the crowd. There were about 40-45 people there, some were new, others were from the other classes.
The only downfall--I didn't think it was the open house because they said it was a free dance session so I didn't bring the family. Chris really wanted to see me perform, I felt like such an ass when I got home and realized he wanted to go.

I'm a day late.....in blogging!!

As was expected I'm up almost a pound. Not surprising when I ate 4 brownies for breakfast on Monday! And YES, they were worth it! Bellydancing starts up again on Sunday, I'm looking forward to it.

And now a word about FaceBook..........I have had more family members contact me from it than anything else. That's sad because I haven't seen most of these people for many, many years and FaceBook is what brings us together. It's made me realize that my sister and I have been brought up in an environment where family--extended family--wasn't important. Granted, our parents split when we were young and our Mum's family are all from Scotland/England but still..........It's sad when someone adds you to their"friends" and has to explain they're your cousin. It wasn't always like that. Back in the day, when we were kids(8,9,10,11), all of us would happily spend the weekend with my grandparents either at their apartment or at the campground. At any given time they'd have my sister and I and atleast 2 other cousins. Now I'd be hard pressed to recognize them in the street.

Is this normal?? Does anyone else have this going on in their families? Maybe I'm going through an emotional mid-life crisis and suddenly feel the need to see ALL of my family. Who knows........

NSV

I just realized I could take off my pants WITHOUT undoing them first!!!! And no, they aren't an elastic waist! I think I'm back into the single digits---time to shop. I've got a gift certificate that I HAVE to use but wanted to wait until I lost some weight. I LOVE NSV'S!!

Where to start......

OK, first of all, I lost 2 lbs as of my WI on Friday--WOOHOO!! I've lost 10lbs so far and I feel great.

This weekend was the mark of the first time I was seeing my half-sister in 18 years........and pretty much meeting her son, my nephew, for the first time. I was stressed. I wanted everything to go well and I was worried that everything would go wrong. THANK GOD IT DIDN'T! We had a blast and it was sad to see them go.

I am emotionally drained right now--I've slept for most of the afternoon. I'll write more tomorrow.

Happy Easter.